as the title says, gotta be shitting me, i fell over at work again, this time as a voulenteer, and this time, i landed on the side of a computer case, you know that square sheet of metal that go's on the side of the computer tower to sheld its insides. THAT, i landed on that, on its very edge, trust me its an S shape now.

so heres how it happened this time, junior kid sitting on chair in pathway to kitchen, put a cardboard box behind his chair leaving around 30 or more centermeters between his chair and the box, (in a pathway!) so im off to the loo, i see the crouded pathway, but i know i can still easily fit, so i side step behind his chair between the box, and he turns in his chair to see whos passing by, the chair back moves with him and snags my butt mid step, i fall over sideways, my left arm pushing a big bin out of the way, my hip lands on the side case, slicing open my hip and putting a small hole in my pants,

this time all the staff saw it, and even my grandperants whom were booking in a computer before taking mum n i to lunch, dad happened to be about to walk out of mums office just as i feel and came running to help, he took a look at the case side i landed on swore, helped me up, this time asking if i was ok, what hurt and so on, he sent mum after me to the kitchen to make sure i was ok,

in the kitchen i realised there was a hole in my pants and i was bleeding, i grabed a band aid, and  headed for the loo, dad told mum to check on it to make sure it wasnt bad or anything, so she came with, mum cleaned up the cut, luckly it wasnt deep, but the swelling was like an egg,

dad apparently roared at the junior about health and safty, i let mum know i landed on the exact same spot of my hip as last time, she took me to lunch with my grandperants, then after the work day was over i saw my good doctor:

pulled muscels under my arm/pit & outer ankel
jared my neck again
and effected my back and hip again
said i will be in alot of pain for weeks yet to come

since the last fall, i know how to sit/stand/walk/sleep causing the most minamle pain, as aposed to the first fall were i was fumbleing through the pain and confusion of not knowing how or what was causeing the random pains. so with strong painkillers i slept moderately well, i woke up a few times and wasnt comfterble, but was better than if i didnt know how to prop myself up properly.

today sitting was horrible, but other than that the pain killers covered it.

this has been my last 8months so far:

successfully starting to loose weight and showing it physically
fall- skelital muscular injury - spine, hip, neck
gained weight
debt -$8000
family rejection
extreem depression and attempted suicide
xmas
family tolerance
break in
family starting to behave kinda normal again
almost debt free
fired
fall- same injurys except add an arm and cut to the mix oh and ankel


i have really bad luck or somthing, because thats just shit. can i think of one good thing thats happend in the whole time?

yeah but only one thing has happened, my freind got wasted beyond her health, i took care of her and brought her home safely, she considers me as her closest freind now, as i always have her.

i can already rate this year and its not even close to new years yet, quite possibly the worst year of my life, the last two closest are:
2011 work flooded, i was officailly obese, started progressing well with my health, permanent hip and spine injury, family rejection, major depression, attempted sucide, debt.
2006 got first boyfreind, totaled car, payed for two cars same month, boyfreind broke up with me same week, got mock fired same week but didnt leave, two large stomach ulsers from stress same month. considered but didnt sucide, became depressed for the first time lasting months.

as far as im concerned, my life is getting worse every year, when it starts looking up, some shit ruins it and puts me worse then before i started. its like that dance where you take one step forwards and two steps back.